UPDATED: December 15th 2013.
I was too late to have that chance this year.
it really took me two years to realize it was love and that he was the one.
I'm not sure if you have been told about it before.. either way, it still can be told.
Austin, I still consider him my first boyfriend. althrough he is now my late boyfriend.
a year ago, he was very bad and naughty towards me. I was straight and boy at that time. so it was surprising to me. and I did experienced those feelings I never experienced before. it was confusing at first.
he was staring at my curvy butt, grabbed it, groped and rubbed firmly here really rough when I was alone with him few times. he also bumped into me few times to catch a quick grope in public at home.
when that fateful day, he popped a sex proposal to me. as in to have sex with me. he told me that he's bisexual and he wanted to bang me. I was so surprised and shocked yet flattered. I also felt good about being loved like that. but I was also scared and afraid. not ready for something like that. so I said no to him.
a day later, he surprised me. I was in my bathroom, brushing my teeth. he comes into my bathroom, and rubbed while pressing into my butt cheeks in middle firmly. what I did feel was his member. he was so big, my god. he was practically big. about 8 inches. it was pressed against my soft bum very firm enough that I felt good. but I also almost moaned and blushing, I managed to hold a straight face. I turned my head around and hissed at him.
he backed off, zipped up and leaves. as he left, he gave me a hard slap on my right butt cheek.
I just blushed right away. and he did wrong thing next day later, which got him arrested.
and few weeks later, he was arrested few times for number of things. things I can't discuss about. this year of August 20th in morning, I finally realized he was the one. my feelings for him were stronger. but it was same morning that I was gonna tell him that I would forgive him and be his girlfriend/boyfriend or whatever they call us that at this point.
that SAME morning I found out he died. it really shattered my heart completely, breaking me to the point that I cried and kept crying over him.
he was killed in high speed fatal crash after attempted robbery. he wasn't wearing the seatbelt. he was killed on impact, hitting the ground after thrown out of car. but he was lucky. why because that fucking car was crushed like a soda can. if he was inside, he would have been crushed along with it. nobody deserves a death like that with a vehicle.
Austin is really sweet man. it's proven. I was helping him get his life back on track and try to get better. it was really hard on him. I did't know that his life was on downward spiral to get more worse and bad leading up to his death.
his own mother was a goddamn slut. she kicked him out of her house so she could bang men alone. he was only 16 at the time. I took him in and helped him. he stayed with me for long time. until 2010 or 2011 I think.
even his own dad was not around to help or guide him. because he was banging my mother (ex-mother currently) during that time. ugh.
he was only 19 when he died. so a year ago, he was 18. an legal age to bang. but I did not know that he was.. banging girls while he was still 16. surprised me when he told me a year ago about it.
even a year ago, he also told me that he wanted my curvy butt to play around with. I asked him, "why?" he replied, "you have most cutest butt." I was surprised about it. my curvy butt is definitely shaped like a heart when I bend over. I guess that's what got his attention.
I mourned over him for four months since his death. it took me long time to get over it, but I still think about him even after he's gone.
I just hope I will find a love and not waste my chance if that person wants to bang me.
but I would tell that person it takes time to earn my trust and my love. I want to know that person first before committing or doing it for real.
that's my real choice. so.. that's my life story on the side.
I was too late to have that chance this year.
it really took me two years to realize it was love and that he was the one.
I'm not sure if you have been told about it before.. either way, it still can be told.
Austin, I still consider him my first boyfriend. althrough he is now my late boyfriend.
a year ago, he was very bad and naughty towards me. I was straight and boy at that time. so it was surprising to me. and I did experienced those feelings I never experienced before. it was confusing at first.
he was staring at my curvy butt, grabbed it, groped and rubbed firmly here really rough when I was alone with him few times. he also bumped into me few times to catch a quick grope in public at home.
when that fateful day, he popped a sex proposal to me. as in to have sex with me. he told me that he's bisexual and he wanted to bang me. I was so surprised and shocked yet flattered. I also felt good about being loved like that. but I was also scared and afraid. not ready for something like that. so I said no to him.
a day later, he surprised me. I was in my bathroom, brushing my teeth. he comes into my bathroom, and rubbed while pressing into my butt cheeks in middle firmly. what I did feel was his member. he was so big, my god. he was practically big. about 8 inches. it was pressed against my soft bum very firm enough that I felt good. but I also almost moaned and blushing, I managed to hold a straight face. I turned my head around and hissed at him.
he backed off, zipped up and leaves. as he left, he gave me a hard slap on my right butt cheek.
I just blushed right away. and he did wrong thing next day later, which got him arrested.
and few weeks later, he was arrested few times for number of things. things I can't discuss about. this year of August 20th in morning, I finally realized he was the one. my feelings for him were stronger. but it was same morning that I was gonna tell him that I would forgive him and be his girlfriend/boyfriend or whatever they call us that at this point.
that SAME morning I found out he died. it really shattered my heart completely, breaking me to the point that I cried and kept crying over him.
he was killed in high speed fatal crash after attempted robbery. he wasn't wearing the seatbelt. he was killed on impact, hitting the ground after thrown out of car. but he was lucky. why because that fucking car was crushed like a soda can. if he was inside, he would have been crushed along with it. nobody deserves a death like that with a vehicle.
Austin is really sweet man. it's proven. I was helping him get his life back on track and try to get better. it was really hard on him. I did't know that his life was on downward spiral to get more worse and bad leading up to his death.
his own mother was a goddamn slut. she kicked him out of her house so she could bang men alone. he was only 16 at the time. I took him in and helped him. he stayed with me for long time. until 2010 or 2011 I think.
even his own dad was not around to help or guide him. because he was banging my mother (ex-mother currently) during that time. ugh.
he was only 19 when he died. so a year ago, he was 18. an legal age to bang. but I did not know that he was.. banging girls while he was still 16. surprised me when he told me a year ago about it.
even a year ago, he also told me that he wanted my curvy butt to play around with. I asked him, "why?" he replied, "you have most cutest butt." I was surprised about it. my curvy butt is definitely shaped like a heart when I bend over. I guess that's what got his attention.
I mourned over him for four months since his death. it took me long time to get over it, but I still think about him even after he's gone.
I just hope I will find a love and not waste my chance if that person wants to bang me.
but I would tell that person it takes time to earn my trust and my love. I want to know that person first before committing or doing it for real.
that's my real choice. so.. that's my life story on the side.